Saturday >> September 28, 2002
9.07 PM

whooo...need to archive soon.

So, what did Michi do the past few days? Well, she got assaulted by more sorority people, and she started classes! I'm far too lazy to type everything that has happened the past few days, so I will include now an e-mail that I sent to my family a few days ago. It...basically sums 'em all up.

Well, today was my birthday. ^__^ I was up late last night watching "Clueless" until about midnight, hehe. i then woke up late (around 8:30 AM...bad Michi! >.<;;), freaked out, and ran out to shower and dress as fast as I could. By the time I finished it was like 9 or 9:15. Silpa had woken up by that time. She said Happy Birthday to me, and gave me a present! ^_^ I was so surprised. Inside was a B-day card, a stuffed bean bear, and a keychain bear wearing a shirt that said "Someone in UCI loves me!". waiii! :D more hugs!

It was kind of sad, though. When I first woke up, I was thinking, "It's my birthday...there's nobody who knows it here...nobody who'll greet me...nobody who knows I've turned 18 here...i'm all alone for the 1st time on my birthday... *cry cry cry*" ;_; but when Silpa said happy birthday, i felt a little better, although i still felt a little lonely. poor michi. .__.

i ate breakfast and ran all the way to the cross cultural center (which is across from the bookstore) to go to the "Kababayan" orientation. It was sooooooo fun! At first I didn't know anybody, but then this junior went up to me and said, "Do I know you?" And then he pauses and says, "Wait...you're from St. Dominic's right? I've seen you at the 9AM mass!" I was soooo happy to find someone from Eagle Rock! His name is Ron Lester...I remember his name because when i first saw his nametag, i thought it said "Red Lobster"... hahaha! Anyway, we talked, got divided into groups, met a "Randy"-clone (he looks excatly like Randy!!)--his name is actually John, and he's really funny. ^_^ We played a couple of silly games, then sat down for some information that they wanted to give us. We also met the Cross Cultural Center director name Linda Gonzales. She spoke Tagalog to us! ^__^ and she asked later who could understand her! I understood her completely, ha! Basically, she told us (in Tagalog) congratulations for choosing to stay in UCI and she hopes that we can learn a lot during this first year. She also encouraged us to enroll into a Fiipino-oriented course, like the Tagalog course (HA!), the Filipino-American History course, Filipino poetry, etc. She's the one who's also inviting me to come back later at 1:30 PM for another meeting, because she found out that I'm the 1st generation here to go to college in the US. There were like a few others who were the same--like 5 or 6 others only. I was surprised. Anyway, so i'm supposed to come back later because she wants to put us in a special program just for us 1st gen people. :D

Ooh, guess what! they were handing out videos to those who could answer some "Kababayan" trivia questions. And i won a "Kababayan" video! :D :D They asked me what "Kababayan" meant, and I said it meant "countrymen" or "country people"...that's correct, right? well, they said it was, so i got a free video, haha. :) :)

Anyway, so I'm off to that meeting now. They're also having square dancing at the park later on, i might drop in. ;) Kababayan's first meeting is tonight at 6:30, with a party at a club later on, but im not going to the party. ^_^ Also, I'm gonna find my classes again later on, just to make sure. Classes start tomorrow, ahhhh!

Hmm...actually, im kind of excited about it, haha. I have 4 classes tomorrow: French, Tagalog, Bio 94 lecture, and a Bio 94 discussion. People say that I take too much. ^_^

Oh, and I'm also considering doing BRIDGES again--you know, going to elementary schools to teach kids and stuff. This time, though, they're paying me: $8.11/hr! if I'm like last year, averaging at about 35 hours or so per quarter during weekends or something, i can earn like $300+ each quarter! ahh, don't worry, i won't work that much, i promise. Studies come first!

Anyway, it's almost 1:30PM, so i've got to go that meeting. i'll write again later. Maybe. Hopefully.

Mahal ko kayo lahat, (this time, it's gramatically correct! :P)
Michi

Lots of people called me that day, just to mention. Reen called (haven't talked to her in ages!), and both Anya and Elisa left b-day voice mails on my phone. My suite-mates found out (from Ami :P) that it was my birthday and tried to surprise me by cornering me in the hall and singing Happy Birthday. Well, I was in the bathroom when they thought I was in my room, so when I came out, they were all confused. Jane told me to go back into my room, lol. I got confused, but just as i was opening my room door, they all burst into song! xD xD neh, i have soooo many nice friends here. So many nice people! And Silpa even greeted me that morning with a present. waii. *hugs* ^__^

The e-mail doesn't say anything about classes, but that's okay, since there's not much to talk about...Well, either that, or I'm just lazzzy. French was fun. Bonjour! Je suis Michi du Californie. ^_^ In Tagalog, we had to take a damn practice tests...i wanted to add that class! *pout* But, turns out, Ms. Barrios won't sign add cards until the results of the test come back. So, at present, I'm riding on 22 units--4 of them are free units that I'm just taking until I can add the class. That means that the 4 units are labor units. x_X;; Bah.

I had a Bio lecture after that. Now that's one big ass lecture. u_u; 300+ people jammed into one lecture hall. I mean...I arrived there half an hour early to get a good seat, and what happened? I end up sitting in the way back. Dammit. >.<; I'll get there a whole hour early next time. Bio discussion was fun, though. Our TA Jessica is really really nice and down-to-earth, even though she's an adamant enviromentalist. She's a great person. I'm gonna look forward to discussions. ^_^

Feh, I'm tired. I miss home. I didn't realize it fully until my birthday. I was listening to Anya's voice message and broke into hysterical tears. Silpa wasn't there, so I just cried myself to oblivion. Poor me. ;_; Well, I'm over it now. I guess before I was all in denial. "No, I'm not homesick" and all that crap. After it hit me, I'm the acceptance stage now.

I'm tired of typing. =_= Archives come soon. I want to try this new (pre-made) layout that I found while browsing through a site one day. But, I haven't figure out yet how to FTP the layout to Kim's host. So...yeah. I'll figure something out. Later, my faithful readers.

Wednesday >> September 25, 2002
3.00 PM

So bored, na? I'm bored. Michi's bored. Boredome leads to sleepiness, which is NOT a good thing. I don't want to sleep. But i'm so bored, na? =.=

i fixed the justify button, so now it looks pretti and justified...lol. Whoo...already tired of looking at this layout all over and over again. I want to change it, but I'm too bored and tired and lazy to make a new one. I was thinking i might just get something from DDG, but i looked and didn't seem to like any in particular.

Eiei, college life is boring, na? u_u; I want to start classes. I want to go to classes NOW. Everyone in our floor is tired, too--most of 'em are sleepin' or taking naps. Me...I'm the retard who's working on her computer... n_n;

Bored. Soooo bored. I joined PUSO today but i still couldn't find the damn Anime club...mou, so tired. I'm gonna try to do something now, to keep m'self awake. Maybe I'll call Alice. Yeah. It's her birthday, anyway...18, woohoo... *languid tone* -_-

Anyway...Ja. =.= oh yeah. thanki, mary, for the justify code trick. . saKi looks pretti now, cuz of you.

Tuesday >> September 24, 2002
12.01 PM

...buahaha! you know what i just found out? UCI lets its students have webpages! No banners, no pop-ups, free space, and FTP. All veri good, methinks. But, what the hell is chmod?

Hm. So maybe I'll move my blog there. And then...maybe not. o.o; I'm gonna have to decide. Ok. So, lessee. Yesterday, I went off to a mandatory town meeting with Silpa. 750 students jammed into the Social Science Lecture Hall that could probably hold maybe 600. x_X; The meeting was pretty interesting. They introduced all of our dorms. Rivendell was the loudest, at least, that's what I thought. We all had a good laugh because when they called our dorms, and all of us girls let out an ear-piercing shriek/shout/scream/cheer (imagine 40+ girls making that noise at the same time xD), in the midst of all the noise, we heard one guy give a cheer also.

"Yeeeeeaaaahhh! They're all girls!!"

xD Very amusing, indeed. Anyway, after the meeting was over, we lost our dorm group, so Silpa and I went out to dinner ourselves. Or rather, I went to dinner myself--Silpa said she was too full. When I returned, I fooled around for about 2 hours. Silpa made a new friend: a third year name Connie, who had just transferred from Syracuse. She is orginally Chinese, so her English was a bit broken. However, she was super super nice. We exchanged cell numbers later that night. ^_^

I convinced both Connie and Silpa to come with me to BSC (Brandywine Student Center) Open House. Once there, I made off to play DDR. I was pretty good, and got applause from those who were watching me, yay! ^__^ Then, I left Connie and Silpa in the DDR room after urging them to try DDR out, and wandered around. I watched people do Karaoke, shoot pool, play ping-pong, and compete in arcade games. Very fun! Then, the three of us left and escaped to the basketball courts, where we watched the talent show they were holding with people who had very weird talent. u_u The finalists were the double-jointed girl, the guy who could scream like a girl, and a guy who could twist his right foot all arond till it looked like he had two left feet. >.<;;;

We went back to our dorms after that, and Silpa and I stayed up late talking. When we finally fell asleep, it was almost midnight. I woke up late (8 AM i pretty late for me -_-;;), showered, and dressed. When Silpa was ready, we went to breakfast together. We thought today would be cold, since it was all gray this morning. We were wrong. After breakfast, we walked the 20 minutes to get all the way to the Campus Plaza in search for an Albertson's. We didn't find it, but we did find an Edward's Cinema. We were disappointed, though, when we found out the the Edward's only played independent films. :P

We walked back and passed by the bookstore. THey restocked, yay! We both bought our missing books, then walked back to our dorms because it was now incredibly hot outside. -_-;; On the way, we were flooded by the club/sorority crowd again. I stopped to join TAPS, and to sign a petition about Solar Energy and how we should use it more to power the University. ^_^

We returned to our dorm (finally) and rested. Silpa's off to lunch now, and I'm just relaxing up here. It's cooled down considerably, which is good. At 12:35 PM, we'll all be meeting in the living room to walk over and see the play "Unspeakable Acts" to performed by UCI alumni at the Physical Sciences Lecture Hall.

So, that's about it, for now. ^_~ Update again later. There's a big Middle Earth Dance tonight at 8 PM and I want to go! Ja!

Monday >> September 23, 2002
1.55 PM

*cry cry cries* My God, it took me three days *sniff* to connect this computer to the UCI Network...3 friggin' days! *wipes her eyes* All right...I'm okay now. I'm just happy that this is finally over with...finally!

Today marks the start of Welcome Week at UCI. I woke up around 7 this morning...too early for Silpa's taste, but I hope she doesn't find it too annoying. I'm so used to waking up early (even earlier than that x_X;). Anyway, after we each had showered and dressed (me in the other bathroom because our own was infested with winged insects :p), we went to breakfast together and then followed the crowd to the Brens Center for the Chancellor's Welcome and the New Students Convocation. We each thought the Brens Center would be just a five minutes walk from the Pippin Commons (our Mess Hall :3), but the building turned out to be out of the campus...a 20 minute walk! >.< When we finally arrived, though, we found that the Brens Center was huge--it reminded me of a Convention Center. ^_^; neh, I also met Stacy while Silpa and I was going through the front doors. She looked happy :) We barely had time for conversation, but with the little we exchanged, I found out that she was staying at Mesa Court. Bleh. :P I'm at Middle Earth...

Well, at least it was still morning and it hadn't turned out to be that hot...yet. The ceremony was very informative and very entertaining (at least in the beginning). A campus club called...uh...i think it was called "Jodakai" or something had seven of its members beat out this very enthralling tune on their gigantic drums. It was very cool, very traditional. They even wore authentic Japanese costume, and yelled out some Japanese phrases whenever they needed to switch some beats around. Very sugoi indeed!

We stayed in the Brens Center for the BioSci school welcome, then retreated back to campus. While we walked the long, looong trek back, we were inundated by people passing out flyers, posters, cards, etc. They filled me with so much stuff. It's carnival here at UCI, too, so they had set booths all around up Ring Road. ALl kinds of clubs, fraternities, sororities, you name it, were out there. It was kinda scary. ^_^; But it was really fun. Silpa and I rushed back to our dorms, where she decided that she wanted to stay and rest. I just dropped my things and went back out to brave the crowd. :3 Turns out that wasn't such a good idea. More people came and gave me more flyers and whatnot, but at least from the mess, I was able to join some of the clubs.

I wanted to look for some of the clubs that I wanted to join, like Anime and P.U.S.O., but I didn't see their booths. Instead, I joined the AMA (American Medical Association) club for Undergratuates in UCI, Christian Fellowship, and Kababayan. Some sorority girls also dragged me to their booths and tried to get me to sign up. I didn't. :D But they kept wanting me to get into RUSH, and invited me to dinners, and all that crap. There was sooo much to do.

But, of course, it got really hot, so i went back to my dorms. On the way, I dropped by the Brandywine Student Center (BSC) to ask about the networking problem I was having. One guy helped me by saying that I had to open a new window each time for every link on the registration page. Well, that helped, but only until I reached the page where i had to send in my info. I couldn't open a new page just to send in my data. So i tried to call them back, but their phone line was always busy. So, i got off my ass and walked all the way back to the BSC to ask for help, only to be told that there was nothing they could do. Bleh. Screw them, i don't think they cared. >.<; So. I had to do this all myself. I'm sooo happy that I finally was able to fix it, but still...I missed being online and talking to my friends and sending e-mail.

I got restless again, so I returned down to Ring Road where I met Sarah Da Yang. ^_^ waii, buddies! When she found out that I had joined Christian Fellowship, she gave me a bible (complete with references, footnotes, and more goodies!) *hugs bible to self*, and pulled me on stage to sing. Buahahaha. Was Michi too shy to go up in front of all that people? ...nahh! I went up and sang some hymms with Sarah. I didn't know most of them, but after listening to the tune, I just joined in. Sarah was surprised--she says I learn fast. ^_^

After leaving her, I went to the bookstore to hunt down the books i was missing. I had gone shopping for books yesterday, but they had ran out of a couple. They still didn't have it. -_-; So, i bought a UCI t-shirt (I'm gonna wear it during the rallies and all :3) and a strap, can-carry-with-you-just-because bag...cuz i don't have one. o.o; While I was paying, I met Dwayne! yaaay! First Stacy, then Dwayne! I didn't even get to talk to him since he looked like he was in a hurry, but he waved his hand, smiled, and said hi, before he ran off. oh well. Happiness ^_^

Returning back, I ran into this guy, who would not let me pass! He kept blocking my way whenever I changed direction, so I was about to yell at him, when I saw that it was Jeff! I had so totally forgotten that Jeff was coming here. We gave each other a big hug, and he tried to get me to join the Korean Christian Club. He laughed when I asked him, "Don't I need to be Korean for that?" Silly boy. ^_^ I turned him down cuz I had already joined a Christian Club, but I found out that he was majoring in Bio-Sci, so that was very good. :)

Three people in one day, that's the most I've seen. o.o; But they're all living in Mesa Court (we-ell...maybe not Dwayne, but he probably is), while I'm here at Middle Earth. :( Silpa's leaving either today or tomorrow. I guess she's homesick. :( But she'll be coming back on Thursday. As for me...I still have so much to do! Finding my classes, getting "Tagalog" added to my schedule, joining more clubs, attending meetings, attending dinners that our RA has set up for "Rivendell"...bleh, I'm a busy person.

Anyway, it's sooo nice to be blogging again. If I worried my reader (and stalkers) about my absence, I'm soo sorry. I need to catch up a little. I'll try not to keep anyone in the dark from now on. :) Ja matta, everyone! I'll write again tomorrow, if not later!

Friday >> September 22, 2000
11.36 AM

i'm almost finished. almost.

Tonight will be my last night sleeping here in my room at home. Tomorrow, I'm off to my new "home", if I can even call it that. Tomorrow, I'm moving in, as will be all my friends... Bah, I'm feeling all sentimental now. Stupid sensitive me *bangs head repeatedly on desk*

Well, now I'm confused. I've seen everywhere that move-in day is this Sunday, yet the packet that I received from UCI says that I'm supposed to check in tomorrow after 11 but before 1 PM. So...is checking-in different from moving-in? o.o;; so confused, na? Was I just supposed to check in tomorrow but not move in till Sunday? what the hell's going on?

neh, my shoulder still hurts. i want to see anya, but i can't drive because my poor poor muscles are in dire pain. i'll miss anya, na? miss her, miss her, miss her...

i also wanted to sent alice a b-day card cuz her b-day's a day before mine, on the 25th. and i want to send reen her present. But, stupid me, they had e-mailed their addresses to me and i had stored it in the computer. MY computer...the one that's all packed up and unplugged and resting in boxes in the living room. I don't know their addresses, so i can't send them anything before i go. why didn't i write them down instead of storing it in my PC?? *resumes banging her head on the desk*

neh, Rory...why did you password protect yur blog? u_u;; And, Halo Scan's not working, so i thought, screw them and decided not to put any more comment thingies. They never seem to work, anyway.

Bah, off to check laundry...again. *Mimics Kimi and shoots self in the head* x_X;;

Thursday >> September 19, 2000
9.40 AM

...I'm trying to finish up all my packing, but I'm still not nearly done. Today, Papa said he'd take me to Fry's in Burbank and go shopping for stuff that I still need, such as (a) Printer Ink, (b) CD-RWs, (c) a tape recorder, (d)an Ethernet Cable, and (e) lotsa batteries. I'm still waiting till he comes back.

Yesterday was Silpa's 18th birthday! It's a sort of weird coincidence that she turns 18 on the 18th of September. The day before that, my cousin turned 17...on the 17th of September. o.o; Anyway, I called her up at La Jolla and we had fun just talking. We talked so long, I didn't realize that it was past 4 and that I had forgotten to pick up Jen from practice. D'oh! >.<;

It was my last day for babysitting at Tita Tere's place, also. I told her I had to cut my week short because I was getting behind on packing, my mom was getting on my case, and on Friday we were celebrating me (and my sister's) birthday. When Uncle Ferdie found this out, he gave me payment right there: $100 for just 3 days! o.o! I told him it was too much, but he said it was not only for the babysitting and the packing help; it was because i was going off to college and that it was part of my birthday gift, also. Haha, I bet he was just trying to grasp for reasons to give me so much--more than what I earned, trust me. neh...but i miss him calling me ining. He called Francine that now. But, whenever he calls it, I always look up. :3 I'll miss him, and Tita Tere and Tita Yhollie and (of course) dear little Francine!

I think I've been driving too much. My shoulders keep twitching in pain...which is a very bad thing. >.< Owwie...I stretch 'em and work them out every evening, but i guess they're not used to me driving every few hours of every day for the past few weeks. I guess doing three-point turns and looking back whenever I switch lanes and reversing are a killer to my neck and shoulder muscles. eieie, but they really hurt, though. x_X;

I packed up my computer, so I'm without my precious PC-san for two days until I move in. I'm sad ._. I guess at least I can use my dad's PC...and he has DSL, too. :3 muahaha.

I was cleaning up all my CDs, sorting out which ones to bring and which ones not to, when I ran across these bunches of blank CDs. I tested some of them out, and I found one CD that contained like 126 MP3s that I had stored in it and that I had forgotten all about. Funn! ^__^ Needless to say, I spent the rest of the evening on my sister's computer, playing all those MP3s (and singing along, too). :D

Hey, everyone. People have been updating without me knowing. Check out Piya's, Rory's, Mary's, and Aniki's blogs (too lazy to make links for them here--but they're on the side margin, so click them there yourself :P). They all have new layouts, and some of them have returned after weeks of silence (*Ahem* Aniki...Rory... u_u). So...check 'em out!

Hnn. So, I'm bored. *twiddles fingers* gah, I hate this. *shoulder twitches* OWW...dammit! *sighs, and massages shoulder* Well, enough from me. Off to check the laundry now. x_X; i need to finish packing. Must. Finish. Packing. Craaaaaap.

Tuesday >> September 17, 2002
10.47 PM

...I just found out what the most horrible feeling in the world is.

Let me tell you about my day today. I woke up at 7 AM, helped prepare breakfast for my sisters. Then, I drove my sisters to school, and I drove back. While I was at home, I fixed the beds and cleaned up the table from breakfast. Ten minutes later, I was again driving, taking my little sister to her own school, and back again. Home, I swept the inside of our house. I then went ouside and swept around the yard. I fed our pets (all 4 of them), and began organizing our messy room. At 9 AM, I took a shower and changed, driving out once again to Tita Yhollie's house. There, I played with Francine until she became tired, and I rocked her to sleep. Then, with Tita Tere helping, I emptied the beds and packed their contents in boxes. I sorted out shoes and pictures. I labled an dpushed boxes into the living room. I then assigned myself to the kitchen where I cleared about 5 cupboards full of dishes, tupperware, utensils, and cups into boxes, separating them into non-fragile and fragile. By 12, I was just finishing up. However, Francine had woken up, too. I greeted her, changed her, and fed her. Then, Tito Ferdie dropped by with lunch. I ate, then said goodbye to Francine and Tita Tere and left.

I planned to buy Charlene's and Marylou's gift this afternoon, but the damn shop was closed. They said that they would open at 2 PM, so I waited for 15 minutes and they never fucking opened. *Ahem* So, I drove home, dropped off a few packages, and went running off to the high school (and later to the Elementary) to pick up my sisters. Coming home, I gave them merienda, eating ice cream myself. I then went downstairs to iron and finished all of mom's and dad's uniforms, and dad's khakis, too. When I finished, it was almost 6 PM, so I drove back to the high school to drop of my sister (Jen) for practice, payed and pumped gas into my car, and drove to Eagle Rock, where I dropped by Lola's place. She gave me packages that had been sent to my mom from the Philippines, then gave me $20 for a birthday gift.

I drove back home a little misty-eyed after leaving Lola, but felt okay, nonetheless. I helped Marylou with her homework, then went into my room and started packing. Late 7, my mom came home. While I was still in my room, she called me into the kitchen and yelled at me for not washing the dishes. I was at first confused, because the dishes that were laying in front of her were washed and were clean. But then, I realized that she was yelling at me for letting my sister wash them, when I should have done it. Well. First, it's not my fucking job to wash breakfast dishes, it's Marylou's. Second, she had no fucking right to yell at me like that. I was so damned exhausted, running everywhere and doing everything. In fact, I usually do wash the breakfast dishes for my sister just because, but today I had soooo busy...i couldn't do it.

So, excuse me for not washing the damn breakfast plates. I'm tired, so very tired. Hearing her yell at me just broke me down. After she finished her voice on me, I went to my room, locked the door, and cried and cried and cried. I was tired, and fed-up, and sick of it all. Maybe it was my exhaustion triggering those tears, or maybe it was the fact that I wouldn't see my Lola until Christmas. Maybe it was both. But...my God, her words killed me. I've been doing this same routine for days now, and nobody had ever told me thank you. Nobody thanked me for the rides to school or practice. My sisters didn't thank me whenever I washed their dishes for them. My mom sure as hell didn't thank me for sweeping the floor everyday, or for going to Lola's to pick up the packages, or for cleaning the house. Sometimes, I believe that she is an ungrateful bitch. There's never any point to cleaning the house, because even if we do it, she raises hell and bitches about how "dirty" everything is anyway, even after it's cleaned. The only thank-you's I got were from Tita Tere...and maybe Papa, when I ironed all his pants.

Hearing my mom scream at me for something as small as not washing the dishes this time just made me feel so unappreciated. And I hate feeling that way. And I hate her for making me feel that way. It's because of her that sometimes I feel there's just no point in life. She hates me, she told me once before. She'd rather have no daughter at all than have a daughter like me, she told me before, too. Those words leave lasting impressions on kids. She doesn't believe so. Who the hell does she think she is? Does she believe that she can insult us, curse us, deride us, belittle us, scorn us, hate us, and then think that she can make it all better by asking our forgiveness and acting nice? That sefless, fucking bitch!

Excuse my entry, I'm just feeling a bit overwhelmed...and very depressed. I hate my current situation--I just want out. RIGHT NOW. Away from her abuse. Away from her. She's driving me fucking mad, making me cry here like some pathetic little animal in one corner, just because I didn't wash this morning's dishes. Fuck her, Fuck her, FUCK HER!

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---> 2.31 PM

mouuuuuuuuu..! so tired! i have absolutely no more time to myself, because I'm too damned stubborn to just say "no". How stupid is that?? This week, I have babysitting duties. I still haven't finished packing! I need to get ironing if I want all those clothes and uniforms down there to be gone. PLUS, out of all that, Jennifer has dance practice tonight. I need to take her there AND pick her up. Tomorrow, Shereen and Jen have confirmation classes. The day after that, Jennifer has another practice. And, on Friday, she has a competition! And, it's supposedly my birthday celebration that day, too. Right now, i have to pick up my sisters from school, then take Shereen to borders, drive to Lola's and get her packages from the Philippines, buy Marylou's gift, and take Charlene's gift to her, too. It can thus be concluded that I am currently blogging this while I'm on the run. I'm so screwed. I have no more time to myself...

I just want to crawl into a corner and cry. I feel so... >.< !!!!!!!

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Sunday >> September 15, 2002
12.11 PM

Busy, busy, busy. ^_^ I've been packing in my spare time, but other than that, stuff always seems to be coming up. Last Friday was errand day, with a couple added housework added in. I wasn't able to finish laundry cuz we were having some backup problems with the pipes... >.< eww. Saturday was more cleanup, then baby-sitting Francine--she's sooo big now, waiii--helping Tita Yhollie move out, then going to Tito Ferd's shop and laughing at the guys playing Counterstrike and murdering each other. muahahaha :) Today is church day, then preparing for this "last-minute" party (thanks to my dad -_-;;). Then, it's off to choir practice for me. I still need to finish packing, and then more babysitting duties for me next week. I don't mind, though, cuz it's Francine and she's so kawaii. :D

Bleh. Even as I speak, I need to go see how the rice is cooking. Iiieeeeeeeeee...so busi busi! u_u; Ja matte! *runs off*

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Thursday >> September 12, 2002
10.08 PM

Kimi was able to download all the pictures to her host today, so now my layout’s complete! Hoorei! :D domo arigato, kimi-chan! I lub you forever, na? :3

Do i sound chinese? I don't think I do. But Sara thought I did, lol. We were talking on the phone (she had called my cell phone without knowing it), and she said I had some kind of "accent". o.o; Wow. I asked my dad about that today and he told me that I'm about 10% Chinese, on my mother's side. Whoot. Well, that's interesting to know, i guess. Still, tho...I sound chinese?? u_u; I guess Sara would know. She's chinese. xD

eieieieiei..! I just saw the preview to Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets a few minutes ago, and it was soooooo awesome! Malfoy's being a bastard, Lockhart looks like Sam from LoTR, and Ron looks absolutely adorables! *pulls out a Ron plushi out of nowhere and glomps it* ^__________^ I can't wait to see it--the movie looks fantastic! It really does. Even though...it won't be out till November 15. Another late movie, aiii! >.<; We-ell...at least it gives me time to read the book again. :3 Why is J.K Rowling taking her sweet time to release Harry Potter and the Order of Phoenix? Why, na? >.< I'm impatient. But...I got to see the preview! I got to see the preview, everione! *nikoniko*

Lol! xD Kimi, thanki for the new sound, too. Kawa-iiiii! *nikoniko*

If you could get a hold of Seiji's unwashed undies, you would. Then you'd probably have them framed. You day dream about the blonde nearly 24/7, have a website devoted to him, and write Sage related fanfiction. Tho' your love of Sage is unhealthy, you are the portrait Seiji otaku. Rate at the Seiji-O-Meter!

*drool* ...Seiji! *faints* xD

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Thursday >> September 12, 2002
11.20 AM

...it looks as if Kimi finished downloading almost all my pics to her domain. There are still two missing pictures, but what the hell? ^__^ yaaaaaaaaay! Everyone, go thank Kimi NOW for her generosity. Now, my blog is accessible in it's entirety on Pitas.com! It looks beautiful on pitas now, cuz my images are hosted! :D

Mi dad bought a new fax machine about a week ago, but i never tried it...until now. u_u; I needed to make more copies of my class schedule in case I lost my original copy, so i went over to the fax machine, pressed the "copy" button, and--whish!--it spat out one nice, clean, warm, black & white schedule in like 10 seconds! :3 I lub the new faxi! I lub it! Whee..! *runs off to make more copies* muahahahahah! xD

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Wednesday >> September 11, 2002
10.37 PM

Well. It's the 11th. Exactly one year ago, we all were changed the moment those two towers were broken into so violently. I can't speak for everyone, of course. Maybe you changed, maybe you didn't. That day, though, you could just feel it. Something broke that day; the people's sense of security, or maybe it was the people's faith in God. It all happened as a result of that one day--a day that affected us all...

I am so sentimental sometimes, I amaze myself. Nobody who know me would agree with the above statement--they've always thought of me as strong, both emotionally and physically. They're wrong. Me? I'm such a crybaby. I cried so many times today...although they were all for varied reasons. I awoke this morning to no sun. It was as if God himself had recognized what today was. As I dressed and readied for breakfast, I didn't feel myself. The feeling in the air was heavy, and sad. Thus, I felt heavy, drained, and sad.

Taking my sisters to school, I dropped by Memorial Park and stayed for the remembrance ceremony. It lasted for about half an hour, with a lowering of the flag as "Amazing Grace" was played softly by the band. I almost cried: the tears were stinging my eyes. But, I held it in, and just continued to grip my little flag while I tried to compose myself. :(

Home was worse. Every channel had a 24hr. tribute to the day. There was a nice part that I did see, about how other countires in the world were honoring our loss in their own special ways. Seeing Australia and their "human" American flag, Great Britain hold special mases, and Japan playing the "Star Spangled Banner" as they lowered the flag got me crying. It's so touching how everyone was banding together around the world because of this.

However, tv soon proved to be the ultimate enemy of the day. It got me depressed just flipping through all of the channels and seeing the towers fall over and over and over again. Giving up on the locals, I started going through the satellite channels, hoping to death for a change. Luck was not in my side, it seems. Even the satellites--300+ channels and all--still had all sorts of tributes. MTV, History, TLC, Weather >.<; I did find a channel that was playing DBZ in Spanish. I watched it with full interest and was able to translate most of what they said, but after it finished, I had to turn it off again after a Spanish newscast came on with the subject--you guessed it--on 9/11.

So, i settled for writing. Writing calms me down a lot whenever I'm high on something. I posted this on the FA boards:

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When my dad told me in the early hours of that morning, not to hang around the "big" crowds in school that day, I just gave him one of my raised looks and continued eating my breakfast. He tended to give me warnings such as those every so often, though I could have never believed the reasoning behing this new warning. It was then that he told us--my sisters and I--that a plane had crashed into the Trade Center. None of us could believe him at first. When I demanded for a look at the newspaper and saw no proof of his outrageous story, we continued to dismiss his claim. However, he looked so sad and so serious that I walked to our television set and turned it on. Horrific images immediately lit up the screen, on every channel. We all stared in horror and shock. Within 10 minutes, I wasn't so sure I wanted to go to school that morning, but we did anyway.

School was abnormally quiet that day. Most everyone had hushed looks on their faces. Those whom I passed that knew about the incident were pale and sober. I remember grouping myself in one corner by the library, waiting for my friends. I remember how some of them knew about it, while others didn't. I remember telling them in my broken voice what happened, and seeing their faces fall into seriousness and anxiousness. When the bell signaled for classes to begin, and we all separated, I recalled our principal talking to us after we recited the Pledge of Allegiance, and how he said the school was in constant communication with the sheriff's department. He told us to try to have a normal day, and informed teachers to stand ready and give support to their students.

I just happened to have my first two classes taught by native New York teachers that morning. My first teacher told us in all honestly that she couldn't teach today, and didn't think we could learn, either. So, she turned on the small classroom tv and watched. My second teacher talked to us seriously about the incident, but couldn't control her emotions after a few minutes. She had to excuse herself out of the classroom in tears. Then, in that same class, our principal made one more announcement: the school was evacuating. Our very close proximity to the Jet Prepulsion Laboratory (a NASA affiliate) had made us a target, and the police department had decided not to take that risk of having us in school that day.

There was so much fear that day, as well as anger. His announcement just allowed that fear to grow even stronger. Who would have though it would ever come to this? That...that ordinary students attending an ordinary high school would have to be dismissed from their classes because their lives were threatened? After reclaiming all my sisters, we returned home to the television. I don't know what it was about that day...I didn't feel scared, despit of our evacuation. I didn't feel angry, not even after an image of Palestinians supposedly "dancing in the street" after they had heard of the attack, filled our television screen. I just felt a deep sense of sadness. I tore myself from the tv set after about an hour and locked in my room where I sat in silence for about 10 minutes. Then, I knelt and prayed, crying as I did so. It was just so terrible what had happened, and it just continues to horrify me what kind of evils humans are capable of doing to each other.

Even after one year, no anger, resentment, or fear seems to have ever resided in my memory of what happened that day--just the same, deep sadness. I still cry sometimes, thinking about what happened. Today, I cried after attending a flag lowering ceremony here in my hometown. But, just seeing how much we've come together through this fills me with hope. Maybe, in a few more years from now, I'll stop crying and look back to this event anew, with less tears and more acceptance, hope, and pride--pride for how much closer that we, as a people, have become as a result of this horrible event.

There is a poem that I would like to share. It was written anonymously, and gives refrence to Lady Liberty on the day of September 11:

"I wonder what she thought
As she stood there, strong and tall
She couldn't turn away
She was forced to watch it all.


Did she long to offer comfort
As her country bled?
With her arm forever frozen
High above her head?


She could not shield her eyes
She could not hide her face
She just stared across the water
Keeping Freedom's Place


The smell of smoke and terror
Somehow reduced her size
So small within the harbor
But still we recognized...


How dignified and beautiful
On a day so many died
I wonder what she thought
And know she would have cried."
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That same afternoon, I went to Anya's house for the little party. Who would have ever guessed that the whole thing was a surprise party--for me!. Of course, it was a little early for the birthday, but I didn't care. I was so happy just to spend that day with friends. We all went home laughing and smiling. I had so many pretti presents in my hand. And, of course, I was crying again, but only because I was happy. How strange it is to celebrate a birthday today. But, now that I think of it, not once in the party did my mind wander to what had happened a year ago. And, even if it did, I didn't stop to dwell in it. I was having too much of a good time. ^_^ What will I ever do without my friends. My God...I love them all, so much! *tears*

And, more good news, and another early birthday present for me: Kimi got her domain to work. By Friday, I will be on chirigami.net. *snugs Kimi* thankyouthankyouthankyou..! hoorei, no more of this "X-ing of images because I can't direct link, etc. blah" crap. ^____^

God Bless America! And everyone, please...continue to have hope for the best. We all can do this. We all can live through this. And, we can all do it together.

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Tuesday >> September 10, 2002
1.02 PM

muahahaha...Michi went a little "CW" crazy yesterday. Sorri that you all had to deal with my temporary insanity. ^__^ I'm currently listening to the soundtrack of The Civil War Broadway Musical. I recommend it very much, although the songs do tend to be country-ish. :/ Still, the album is quite good, the songs are beautiful and--what's the word, again?--nostalgic. Yeah. :) It's calming me down, anyway, just hearing it. I haven't listened to it in awhile.

There's a huge brushfire raging in the Glendale/Burbank area, burning through most of the Verdugo hills--right across from us, yikes! It started yesterday, and the smoke was so dense and dark that you could see it from miles away. Now, driving through La Canada, I could actually smell the burning trees and smoke. It's kind of scary. Thank goodness that it hasn't come any closer, despite the fact that it has spread fast and is, so far, only a little over than 20% contained. It's reminiscent of the fire we had a couple years ago that made its way through Angeles Forest and surrounded us till it was just right behind the hospital (we live just 2 blocks from the hospital). We evacuated our house. Just in half an hour, we had almost everything we wanted to save in our cars. Thankfully again, this fire was contained and didn't come any closer. Still...it was very scary.

Tita Gina called me yesterday just to see if we were okay. *feels loved* ^__^ She had called around 9 in the evening, coming straight from work, and had just found out about the fire. She was so worried and caring! Tita Gina is a good tita, na?

I finished most of my packing last evening, despite what all was happening. Most of my clothes packed, that is. I still can't believe I'm taking two whole suitcases filled with clothes to Irvine. I've never packed so much! You'd think I was over-packing--for awhile, I really did think I was. Mama finally convinced me I wasn't, but still...eieiei, my closet is so empty! u_u;; Lol, well my sister will be happy.

Matt, mahal kita. Keep working, neh? I'll always be here. :)

September 11 ceremonies are taking place all over the nation tomorrow, with one here in La Canada, too. Everyone, tune in to your tv if you can't actually go to any one of 'em. I don't think I can go to the St. D's mass cuz of Anya's party, but I will be praying and keeping everything that has happened that day last year and throughout today in my memory. God Bless America!

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Monday >> September 9, 2002
10.40 AM

Oh my God. Oh my God! I really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really REALLY want to see this movie! Damn me for thinking they'd release it this month...damn them for thinking they could release it next year February. Can I really wait that long? I really REALLY want to seeeeeee it!!! I've been waiting for sooooo long...since Gettysburg. Since I got the books! *cries* I want to see it NOW..!!

*rambling* everyone, see the behind-the-movie pics HERE. Awe at Robert Duvall's poise as he portrays the great General. Admire the courage of the 20th Maine Regiment as they march to battle in Fredricksburg. And, look closely for Colonel Chamberlain's brother, Tom. Look. Blink. Drool. Why? The man who plays him, C. Thomas Howell, is absolutely beautiful. See him HERE.

Listening to The Killer Angels right now. Hell, let me just get out my soundtrack right now and blare it on my stereo. Wait, even better--let me just watch the DVD all over again!

*runs off*

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Sunday >> September 8, 2002
10:59 PM

teehee. ^_^ Michi had a spectacular day today, and she will now commence to enlighten all of her faithful readers with her ramblings. lol. so...it was cooler today. actualli, very cold (Cali-wise, so to speak). we all rambled to church for the 9 AM mass, then went off to eat at *Islands*--michi split a "Pipeline" with her sis. I can never get over how big the hamburgers are that they serve. =.=; Afterward, we went to the Galleria and went shopping, eiiii! Mom went to her favorite store whilst I dragged my poor sisters off to Forever 21 and started looking for stuff on my own. I saw lots of those light, transparent, wonderfully baggy/frilly shirts they were selling for as high as $40+ each. My sisters and I had a good laugh at that, since just last week, we had taken a trip downtown LA and bought the exact same shirts (prints and everything) for about $6 apiece. muahahaha, those rip-off people. :)

i scavenged around for a few more minutes and finally emerged victorious with this beautiful pink/creme-colored floral dress, lace trim at knee length, and sphagetti-strapped at the top. it fit so beautifully, na? and michi was so happy--she bought it...for $20. *____* waii, i haven't bought a new dress in...whoa, i think a year. x_x; haha. my sister jen also emerged with a pair of jeans--$49 at ticket price. My mom refused to buy it, and since Jen was broke (someone made off with her $40 a few days ago because she stupidly left her wallet on her desk during midmorning break >. we came home--my mom treating us to ube slushis on our way, yum!--and we all settled down. it was my turn to iron, so i did so. I got all the pants, uniforms, blouses, skirts done, hoorei for me. ^_^; also, silpa called me--yaaaaaaay--and we gabbed for about an hour or so (mom got mad ^_^;;--but gabbing for that long a time is a good sign...right?). And after she called me, Anya called me! :D I was so happy to hear from both of them. Anya finally got her dorm info, too. Her roommate lives in Oakland--so far away u_u;. Anya hasn't called her yet, but i was encouraging her to do it. Hopefully, she'll get to it, and soon, too. Anya also invited me to a party at her house this Tuesday nite, so I'm happy happy happi. ^___^

heh, so...even after today, I'm not that tired. In fact, I'm in a very bloggable mood today, haha (as you can probably see :3). Muahahaha, i even managed to get this comment thing to work--and it's not enetation! I think I may need to fiddle with the colors, though...black doesn't seem to be the right color for now. o.o; I was also thinking about moving my blog to diary-x. It's pretty much the same deal--no banners, link ads, money, etc.--as with Pitas. The only difference is that the commenting code will work so much better and easier with diary-x, than Pitas (with pitas, I have to do it manually). Then again...I could just wait for Kim to host me. Hmm...

However, as always, there are many other things that must still be done. Michi needs to clean her room because it is lamentably (and horribly) dirty. She also needs to clean her poor closet, which is in a far worse state than her room. =.=; I need to somehow find a way to get another suitcase. I need to finish packing. I need to make more lists. I need to remember to go to Memorial Park this Wednesday for the Remembrance Ceremony, and to go to mass the same day. I likewise need to remeber that Charlene's b-day is at the 17th, Silpa's b-day is the 18th, Alice's b-day is the 25th, and my sister's b-day is the 26th. Oii...too many presents to buy. u_u;;

neh, Bridget? Hang in there! :) I hope you feel better soon.

Ya see what happens when I don't read Tatara-san's updates? I become the last to know that Utadu Hiakaru got married!!!! *tears* eieiei, i'm so happy for her! good luck, neehhhhhhhhh?? my love to you!! ^______^

...and finally, as we come to the end of this entry, here are some goodies for you--my faithful readers (all of whom I've probably scared away by now xD)--for bearing up with my pointless and happy ramblings:

The Completely Pointless Personality Quiz

Muahahahaha..! xD

...and < this > amused me very much, indeed. I just hope you all don't get too offended. And, yes, I am a LoTR fan, too. I'm just a little open-minded, s'all. :)

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Thursday >> September 7, 2000
6.36 PM

i feel like...crap >.<; and i don't know why. i tried to get up this morning and couldn't because i was so v e r y t i r e d. My appetite's all shot, too. I don't really want to eat, although I am ravenously hungry. So, I eat anyway...and I don't get full. My stomach's still empty. u_u; And I'm still tired. I just want to sleep. -_-; But I can't because...I have too many things to do.

We cleaned again today, and all that's left is for me to clean Mama's bathroom. I hate cleaning bathrooms. That's probably the one thing I won't miss when I get to Irvine. *smiles gleefully* I also did a little more packing. I grabbed one of those red storage boxes that was laying in the guesthouse and started putting random stuff in it: a picture frame or two, a book rest, a dictionary, an umbrella. It's my box of random--but very much needed--objects I will need for college.

I can add Bridget to the list of gone offs. I meant to add her in yesterday, but...I guess I forgot. ^_^; She's going off to Harvard, though--smart girl, neh? :) Good luck, Bridget. Now, there's Anya, Meg, Anna, Jen, Sarah, and Elisa left. We're all going to UCs. Neh...why does UC have to start so late? Blessing or not...it's still late to be starting end of September. But, I guess I'll have to suffer later when we're the last ones to take the vacation. =.=;

Everyone, looki! I found an Ewan McGregor fan site with lots of yummy pictures! *___* Lol...I bet Tzvi's shaking his head at me, haha. :D And Rory's getting jealous. ^_^; kidding, na? Speaking of which...Roooooorrryyyy, you bad blog person, you haven't been writing! o.o; heh. But, I guess that means you're having a good time @ uSC...which is always good to hear.

Okay, well...I need to clean that damned bathroom now before mom gets home. ja! Oh, and here:

Which HP Kid Are You?

...bleh. I wanted to be Ron. o.o; He looks more adorable, agreed?

Friday >> September 6, 2002
10.30 AM

...ooh, an early entry. ^_^ Well, it did eventually end up raining, but it was mostly in the evening. Right now, it's on and off sunshine, and it has turned out to be surprisingly hot for just the first few hours of morning. In other words...it's very nice out here. :D

I finished packing school supplies yesterday, wheee..! I also began putting aside some of my "winter" clothes. So, yes, Michi got a lot done that day. :)

I noticed that my mom has been acting stranger than usual. Not that we've been getting into a lot more fights lately u_u; but also that...during her nice times, she tends to be overly nice and sweet and cheerful, which somewhat bothers me. I don't know if she's trying to hide something or what--I'm no psychologist. I guess it has to do with me leaving in two weeks. She likes to call me a lot during the mornings and afternoons that I'm all alone in the house (with sisters off to school and dad at business), and would always end each conversation with something like, "Oh, my poor Michi is going away soon..." or, "Michi will miss doing [whatever I was currently doing] when she's gone..." or, "What will I do without my Michi?". Whenever she says this, her voice gets all soft and "coo-ey"... u_u; I don't know what to make out of it.

Take this morning's phone conversation, for example:

[Mama]: Hello!
[Michi]: 'ello.
[Mama]: What are you doing?
[Michi]: um...laundry. (note: Friday is laundry day at our house)
[Mama]: Aiii! *switches to Tagalog mode* Masiadong masipag ang dalaga ko!
[Michi]: eh..? o.o;
[Mama]: Masipag 'kaw!
[Michi]: *somewhat embarrassed* neh...hindiii! Hindi ako masipag. I'm...just doing laundry! We do laundry every Friday, right? Nothin' special...
[Mama]: o-o. Pero, walanang jiaan mag tuloy sa 'yo.
[Michi]: uh...I'm ok by myself. Really.
[Mama]: seguro ba ikaw?
[Michi]: *confused* mm-hmm...
[Mama]: ok
[Michi]: ok
[Mama]: sigi na...
[Michi]: bye... o.o;;;

This was the actual conversation--sorry to the peeps who don't understand. ^_^;; Basically, she was making an overly overly big deal with me doing laundry...and I kept telling her it was nothing, it's just laundry. neh...i'm all confused now. I'm gonna go check on the dryer. u_u; ja matta.

Thursday >> September 5, 2002
2.23 PM

I'm looking outside our deck door right now...and it looks miserable outside. Not raining, but it looks like it's just about to. Pero...ano bayan?? It was hot this morning, and then suddenly cloudy. Well...I guess we need the rain, what with all the firestorms raging here in Cali. =.=;

I'm alone again. In the house. Papa said he was going to Costco and would be back in maybe an hour, but it's been 4 hours...running into 5. So, yeah. It's dark. It's turned colder. And I'm all alone. (poor michi) ._.

neh, Mai seems to like my lap. she's just all curled up and warm...and she's snoring, Lol.

Well, I'm supposed to be packing, but I'm not. I only seem motivated to pack and make lists and be organized at night, and not during the day. A bit ironic, considering that I'm more hyped up during the day than at night. Today, for instance, just this morning, I took all my sisters to their perspective schools, swept the front and back yards, watered the front and back garden, swept inside the house, fed Lucy (our cockatiel), Candy, and Mai (our dogs u_u;), and cooked rice. I considered washing my sister's dishes, but got lazy and decided not to, haha. ^_^; I accomplished a lot this morning...ugh, but tomorrow's laundry day. I hope it doesn't rain then...that just makes it a LOT harder to do laundry. x_X

...It's about time to pick up my sisters again, so I'm off. Maybe I'll write later. I don't know...I don't seem to be in a blogging mood today. I guess the weather's starting to affect me... o.o;

Wednesday >> September 4, 2002
5.55 PM

...yattaaaa! I got my guestbook up! It's up, it's up, it's up! *dances around* xD

owwwwwww...my poor fingers. They're getting mutilated here from typing so much HTML... >.<

earlier today...
2.00 PM

...yes, I ranted yesterday, and yes the rant was highly ironic. I'm strongly against direct-linking myself, knowing the kinds of damages it has done to bandwidth and the like. I've known many really good sites that have been shut down because a couple of jerks decide they want to direct link to images or music files on a webmaster's server, causing bandwidth to skyrocket past its proper level, thus increasing domain price, and eventually giving the poor webmaster a run for his/her money. Um, so I was technically ranting over something that I would never find myself ranting over--but I was just angry. I had gotten sick of the frames version of the last layout and wanted to give tables a try. Tables are a bit harder for me, though, so making out all the HTML, the graphics, and the like, took three honest days of work. Now, finding out just after you're done that it doesn't work after all...it just put me off on the edge. So, yeah. Sorry you had to find me on a bad side. -_-;

...so. I'm still slightly upset about the whole thing regarding linkage, but there's really nothing I can do. Until Pitas undestands that they need to allow people to decorate the blogs that they so generously offer its customers, I'm stuck with frames...and having to put this all on Brinkster instead of Pitas where it should be. I do, however, have some good news. Kimi (bless her heart ^__^) saw my predicament yesterday and ecstatically offered to host me on her domain at chirigami.net. And I happily agreed. Yay! So, . saKi may be moving soon, although I'm still not sure when. Kimi has been having problems with her domain lately--it's being naughty. :3 But, she promises me that as soon as she gets it running smoothly again, she'll give me a go.

More good news (and isn't that exciting?). Just hours ago I finally received my dorming info in the mail. I'm technically moving in on the 21st (they upped the move-in date by one day >.<;), but they don't give the dorming info until "early" September. What's up with that? Michi nearly died of impatience. (grr...) Oh, well. Better than Anya--poor her, having to wait until this Friday before knowing. >.<

Anyway, so now i know who my dorming buddy is. Her name is Silpa, born on September and majoring in BioSci (...like me o.o;). I called her up the moment I found out, being my silly-excited self, but then immediately was overcome by nervousness once I heard the first ring. I remember when Reen first called me about her roommate--she was nervous and shy, but I had so confidently told her it was going to be okay, and told her just to relax and ask questions. It feels good to be giving advice like that, but it's so hard to follow it yourself. I wish someone had told me that. I wish I could follow my own advice, lol. ^_^;

In the end, though, Silpa sounded like a really nice person. We really did have lots of things to talk about, but we were both so nervous--it was almost hysterical. Both of us were stammering, both of us kept interrupting each other at the wrong times. Both of us clamored to bring up a subject--any subject, even random ones *sigh*--when the dreaded lull in the conversation came. And then, in bringing up those subjects...we would interrupt each other and stammer again. -_-; Still, I had fun being nervous with her. I had a good laugh (out of embarrasment for myself) when we hung up. I bet she did, too. ^_~;

I got into the Middle Earth complex, as I had hoped, and am staying in Rivendell (as I had predicted), hoorei! ^__^ I'm am now just super excited to be going to UCI.

It's my sister's birthday today, she's turning 14. My mom forgot. I reminded her on the phone today, and she was like "Oh, yeah...OhmyGod, I forgot to greet her this morning!" -_-;;;; I snuck in a card on Jen's plate during breakfast, and went shopping today while she went off to school. Got her a pretti bag, since I know she likes bags--or at least, she likes the one I have. ^_^;; I got her one just like it, lol.

And, for the first time in weeks, I heard from Reen via e-mail. I was really happy to hear from her. She sent a pic, too, which made me happier. She looks like she's enjoying herself. Yay! But I miss her lots, too. Lol, i just realized...she's still carrying that kawaii bunny bag! :D

Whoo, it's almost time to pick up my sisters. Ja matta, my faithful readers.

Tuesday >> September 3, 2002
6.44 PM

...ugh, does anyone know how long this layout has taken me? I had the lovely surprise of finding out that either Brinkster or Pitas does not support direct linking files from another server. How was I supposed to link my images, then? Everything comes out X-ed in Pitas when I was finally able to copy and paste the code. That really really pissed me off! I mean, I worked days on this, and there are still errors because one of the servers (not sure yet which one at the moment) won't allow direct linkage! >.< I bet you Pitas people who are looking at this entry haven't the fuck about what I'm talking about. Well. Take a very good look at this pitas page. Bare, isn't it? Pathetic, huh? Now place your little scroller HERE. See the difference? I promised you guys that I would have a beautiful new layout that would work on Pitas, but I guess not, because of this very crappy situation I'm in right not. Anyway...sorry for all the curses. I'm just one very pissed off webmistress right now-- *paces out, still fuming* >xO